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Wednesday, March 28, 2012

28/3/2012

W.T.F.

Hi peeps!

I finally muster enough courage and time to actually do this.

A level results are finally released. Let's just say, I didn't do very well.... I cried. Of course I did. But not for the same reasons as everyone else. To some extent, I know I didn't exactly gave everything I could. Honestly, I put in much more effort in O's than this. So I sort of got what I deserved. Still, it sucks knowing that you let your parents down. I wasnt expecting rainbow results if you get what I mean. I just wanted a decent looking A level certificate. And apparently, that was too much to ask for. Thankfully, I had my friends to get me over it. Yes, it still hurts when I look at my grades, but at least I can talk about it. Truely grateful to all my true friends. You guys were really there when I needed you.

So, the first thing after A level results would be university application. Applied for NUS, NTU and SMU. But hoping for NUS to call, though SMU just did to book me for an interview for 10 April. Hopefully, I wont get screwed this time.

Talking about university application brings me to a topic which has been irritating me for a while. It seems like everone is taking turns to take their shots at me. Saying stuff about my 'future' and my actions. First, I had my dad saying that what I chose was not 'money-earning' studies and he has been hinting to me that I will regret it. Then, I had my frens questioning my choice and my way of leading my life.

Issit wrong for me not to plan out my future like everyone else? Is there a rule that says you must have every single step planned out? Is there really a blueprint to success? No, no and NO. I have my dreams too, about striking a balance between life and work. I hope to able to achieve that. Because, you only get one chance to live, so I don't want to be chained to a office table and doing things that I dont want to do for the rest of my life, just for the money. I want to do something that I can truly enjoy. I believe that if you really enjoy your work, you would do well in it and therefore, succeed. If I am wrong to think that, then sorry, I am just not you.

This is me. I dont plan my life out step by step. I prefer to live in the moment. Maybe I do plan a little. But I never want to do it, because I noticed that life doesn't exactly go the way people hoped it would be or planned to be. It's always full of surprises and that's what makes life interesting. I don't need you to understand that but I will really appreciate it if people would stop looking at me as though I was mad or some idiot. Just because I don't do things the way you do it, doesnt mean I am wrong. Neither am I saying you are. But hey, that's just me.

If you don't like the way I do things, that's fine. If you think I am doing things wrongly, then I am sorry. I am sorry for being me. But in fact, I am not sorry at all. If you want to look down on me, so be it. I don't really care, as long I don't look down on myself. I will live with it.

Seriously, I don't live for you. Neither do you live for me. Just respect one another's way of life and decisions. That's all I am saying.

That's all for today,
See Ya.

I'm still breathing;
7:58 PM