Life is like a roller coaster. Just hold on tight when it's going down.

Saturday, June 11, 2011

11/6/2011

I think too much at night

Hi peeps!

I am finally done with market structure, yes I know I am slow, but I was still in the relax mood. I still got 1 more movie that I have not watched, which I have downloaded, so once I am done with that, it will be full speed with mugging. Promise.

I am seriously considering to mug at my house's void deck, though the thought of how retarded I will look is deterring me just as much as I have the urge of doing it. Gosh, I really have no discipline at all :/ Once I am at home, I will always be using the comp. Haiz.

Sometimes, there are really things that you just dont want to think about, yet you end up thinking about it ALL DAY LONG. I can find a million of reasons not to care about it but yet I can find the same amount of reasons to do so -.- JASON SEOW, KENNETH TAY and RYAN GOH it's not working!!!!! ._.

I think my dad is taking another approach of trying to get me to do work. And I sort of prefer it. He is doing much more encouragements than he is nagging. Well, I know it sounds quite funny, but he hugged me in the morning for no apparent reason. Like seriously just like that. Kind of makes me feel even more guilty for slacking for so long. GOSH, what am I doing with my life?! ._.

Talk about slacking, I went to play basketball yesterday. At CHS. Somehow, I could still walk there without looking, Not literally but like, I was playing with my phone while I was walking and yet I found my way there somehow. I think they call that muscle memory or something. I prefer to think of it as, my body is missing Cat High :/ HC makes Cat High looks like a kindergarden school.

Then went to Seph house for PS3 before heading back home. Haiz, I know I've been slacking too much. Everyone is telling me that. Perhaps I should just die for BT2 to get myself mugging harder after it.

My ex-tuition teacher told me that I would feel alone at night from her own fortune telling crap. I told her never. Looks like I am wrong.

Never say never huh? (I know it's a JB song, but it makes sense this time.)

When the sun sets and thoughts go astray. I thought I would be over with all this.

That's all for today,

See Ya!

I'm still breathing;
11:35 PM

Thursday, June 9, 2011

8/6/2011

Sick of being a puppet.

Hi peeps!

I am getting sick of being a puppet. Not literally being controlled of course. I mean like, being used?

Somehow, the kind of feeling I get from people is that, I am just someone to turn to, when you need help. When you dont, *poof* I disappear from your life. Yeah, so much for friendship and everything. The only people that have turned to me to really do something enjoyable with them, is only Jason, Ryan and Kenneth. Yeah, tell me how sad my life is ._.

Seriously, so much in life has happened to me, that I am already getting that feeling from a lot of people. And honestly, I hate that feeling. I won't show it of course, I am not that, dumb. The only good thing I've taken away from all these is, finding out who are true friends of mine. Who are those who will really stay by me no matter what.

Haiz, and I still havent got into the mood of studying yet. Blocks in 2 weeks? Thanks a lot. How about saying I am screwed?

GAHHHH.

It's raining now. Perhaps I should catch some sleep. Hopefully, HOPEFULLY, I will get up early and finally get some work done.

It's a short post, but you can't blame me when it struck me again out of the blue.

Don't walk ahead of me, I may not follow. Don't walk behind me, I may not lead. (No, this is not that cliche quote.) Walk with me on my entire life journey, stay by me no matter what happens, and I will try my best, to the same for you.

That's all for today,
See Ya~

I'm still breathing;
12:08 AM