Now that season has ended, there's no need for me control any emotions. Now that there's no games to play anymore, I don't need to keep everything in.
I am not satisfied nor proud of this team and season. Yeah, suprised? As much as I felt we played our hearts out and everything, I am not. But hear me out.
We had the capabilties, the talent and the coach to make semis. Not talking big, but I am serious. We did. But, it doesn't mean a thing now that we didn't. We underachieved, and that is nothing to be proud of. We deserved a spot in the semis. But because we had guys not giving their all, we had guys giving up on plays, we had guys who gave up on the game. That to me, is not a good team. Yeah, it's true that most of us corrected our mistake that we made. But it wasn't in time. All our hopes were on the line, yet, there were people giving up? I dont get it. I really don't.
Yes I agree, I wasn't the best player either. No one was. I was never composed in any games until today. But I know one thing, I gave everything I had, in every game I stepped on the court. It's a real pity that our season had to end this way, it really is.
It hurts even more to see the girls make it. Yes I know, they trained hard too. They deserved that spot. But hey, I am not being arrogant, but we trained ALOT hader and went through ALOT more obstacles. Yet, beacuse of the groupings, we are now watching and cheering them from the sidelines. That feeling sucks even more. When I had the chance to change everything, I didn't make full use of it. I CHOKED. AND THAT SUCKS. I tried so hard to not think about it, but I still did. It haunts me like a ghost. I am disappointed. In everyone, including myself.
Don't get me wrong. I love this bunch of jokers. True that they annoy me a lot, but I will still miss them. All the times we had together, the fun, the blood and sweat and the tough times. We went through all that, and I am very very happy that we pulled through. But we underachieved. Let's face it, we did. We deserve to be part of the announcements for Top 4. But we didn't and that's all that matters.
HAIZ, still, I will miss HC Floorball ):
What am I to do after school now? Now that I am half-sure that a certain promise wont be fufilled. So now what? The feeling of loneliness back again. This time worse.
I hate the fact that I am in a position I am in now. Neither here nor there. It sucks.
Sorry for all the rants, but I held in long enough for the entire season.
Because it sucks to know you were this close to your dreams and you missed it. The worse thing of all is that, you don't have a second chance.
That's all for today, See Ya
I'm still breathing;
8:23 PM
Welcome To My Life.
Guy.
171.5cm.
Greenwoodian of 1I and 2A to 6A ' 00-05.
I was a CHS 'gentleman' of 1-4,2-4,3-9 and 4-9' 06-09.
I am now a HC-ian of 10S74 and OG34.
I am in HC Floorball <3 .
Addicted.♥
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Basketball.
Floorball.
Friends.
Sleeping.
Originality.
Being Direct.
