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Friday, April 22, 2011
22/4/2011

So Close

Hi peeps!

I can see the day of my first match just round the corner already... 28th April 2011.

Time really flies huh? To think it was 5 months ago when Coach first came in to take us and accepted the challenge of bringing that ridiculously lousy and undisciplined team to greater heights. And now, in just 6 days, we are going to play the defending champions MJC.

Respect to Coach for sticking with us up till now. Despite being pestered by other schools and all the work he has to put in for travelling and coming to train us at night, he still stuck with us. He always expect the best of us, expects more and more and mentally and physically challenges us. Always there to push our limits yet there to make training fun while tough at the same time.

Yes, we are the underdogs going into A Divisions. Everyone is looking at us as a team they will just enjoy beating. I am not saying we are not and we are here to win the championship and walkover every team. But hey, we're a different team from people expect and the only chance of walk-ing over us, is over 19 dead bodies. I am not bragging us as the best team, but I will say we are a contending team. Not enough to make people fear us, but we will suprise a lot of teams. And if MJC is not careful, we are going to "whack the living shit out of them".

We came too far to just walk to MJC to give up. As Coach would put it, we ran hundreds of kilometres, did thousands of push-ups and pushed our limits not to just show up at A Divs.

Our team is built on effort and desire to win. Not on skill and great players. Is built on chemistry and team spirit. Not on great performances by certain players.

Right now, I am just hoping I will continue improving and I will be rid of my injuries. My freaking screwed up ankle and my toenail is halfway coming off -.- Sucks to be unable to play at my best :/ Hurting every step I take but I am not going to care, because playing through it is worth it. It's fun and I won't regret it.

Oh, I bought a new phone :D Xperia, havent got about to trying out the stuff yet, but hopefully it will be good. haha. But it's touch screen, which means it would be hard to sms -.- HAIZ. Stupid W705, just had to spoil -.-

Nothing less than 100%. That's how much I am going to give when I step on the court. Every. Single. Time.

That's all for today,
See Ya~

I'm still breathing;
8:14 PM

Saturday, April 16, 2011
16/4/2011

A Rude Welcome

Hi peeps!

I am home from friendly match against my alma mater, Catholic High School, and my juniors just gave a rude welcome. Not in the actual life sense, but more of a floorball sense.

Well, we pretty much lost the game for many reasons but I think most of it came from the lack of effort from most of our guys. I know the floor was pretty slippery, I know it was hard to run, I know they were good but, really? 10-3? To a secondary 4 team who played 2 matches before us?! Like seriously, I find it unacceptable myself. Frankly, I felt embarassed and disgusted.

Yet, some of them can still have fun and smile and joke and laugh after the match as though everything was good. Hey, I know I am not good enough to scold you guys yet, but that doesn't mean you all can just fool around during friendlies. -__-

In any case, I did improve a little from the previous friendly, but it didn't seem enough for me. At least, I felt that I could play a lot better. Quoting coach, "I still have some faith in both of you, don't make me lose that faith" Matt probably hates me for screwing up so badly today :/ If I had played a lot better, Matt probably wont be seen in such a bad light. :/ HAIZ.

That's it, I am training everyday. I know it's a little late, but better late than never. COME ON, FOCUS FOCUS FOCUS FOCUS :/

Oh, I bought a new pair of shoes, changed my blade and bought new and LONGER sweat bands. Hopefully, these little things would help.

Guys, let's wake up our bloody idea and start presenting ourselves in the way we train. 100% effort and nothing less. COME ON GUYS.

It's just round the corner. The chances are there but we just have to grab it. Give it a 100 % and GRAB IT. If we lost track of the goal, we will never get it. So, step up your game before people step on you.

That's all for today,
Keep faith,
See Ya

I'm still breathing;
11:54 PM

Thursday, April 14, 2011
14/04/2011

Liability

Hi peeps!

We just had our first friendly against some Div 2 team today and to say that I played like shit, would be a serious understatement. I was like the weakest link out there. Not really helping on offense, not doing much on the defensive end either. It's so freaking close to A Divs and now is not the time for me to be screwing up stuff that I shouldn't be, making mistakes that I shouldn't make and not fighting hard enough when I know I can give a lot more.

Guess I wasn't really suprised that I got subbed out for the second time this year. Screw it, I should just bang my head against the wall -.- Feeling like the liability of line 1, the team and even in other parts of my life: STUDIES.

Wtheck, like seriously. I spent 1 hour plus working on a question to get 8 marks out of 25. SERIOUSLY, FML. This is the 2nd '44' I got for block test already. ONE MORE MARK TO E AND I JUST CAN'T SQUEEZE THAT OUT. ARE YOU KIDDING ME?!

For whatever reasons, I am just annoyed and pissed off with myself. I keep telling myself, I need to work harder, I need to play better and I need to rest well. Yet, I am screwing up my tests, I am screwing up my first friendly and I am still injured everywhere. Seriously, is life trying to play a joke on me or something?!

Sorry TF, I just can't get it out of my mind. I know I shouldn't beat myself up so much but, SERIOUSLY?! It feels like nothing is going right for me (maybe except my bio results) and the only thing keeping me alive right now is me ignoring everything except the stuff I have to do.

I am living day by day. Not really caring so much about planning ahead anymore. I am totally just screwing up my own life. I keep telling myself I can ignore everything and go out there and do whatever I can and the best I can in whatever I am doing. Yet, I am still like this.

Haiz, it doesn't help either when almost everyone else is celebrating the win, the goals they scored and the plays they made. Maybe I am just being pessimistic. JUST MAYBE.

Okay, I am just going to try and sleep everything off.

Have you ever felt like the liability of a group of people? Have you ever felt like everything doesn't seem to go your way? What are you supposed to do?!

That's all for today,
See Ya.

I'm still breathing;
11:42 PM

Saturday, April 9, 2011
9/4/2011

Argh.

Hi peeps!

So busy nowadays with training and catching up on work that I hardly have time to blog. And even if I had the time, I would be watching NBA and that would be it. Occasional listening to new music covers. Other than that? Sleep.

Ironically, I am lacking sleep. Though it was a lot better than when I was having insomnia, but I am still like falling asleep all over the place. Can't imagine someone had to wake me up at the int -__-

Yet at the same time, I wonder, is all this pushing hard during CCA, worth it? Despite so much efforts being put in to try and keep the team focused, they are still the same. Mentally weak and yet not physically tough enough to fight the top tier teams. As much as I want this team to go far during A Div, it wont matter if it isn't a team effort. No one is going to do it alone, everyone needs to play a part. We can't just having only 8 players being able to play throughout A Divs. Does someone really need to fall for the entire team to become focused?

And now my results are taking a toll too. Yeah, I am still consoling myself that I didn't had enough time to study but I really know that I just didn't put in enough effort. Whatever.

At least the only consolation I have now is that my PW got an 'A'. Nothing much to be proud of when 92.7 % of the school gotten an 'A'. But still, nice to see nonetheless.

I feel so mentally drained and physically drained from all the trainings, PT and thinking of ways to improve our team. Yet at the same time, I've to maintain at least a LITTLE BIT of foundation so that it wont be such a hard climb back up when mugging. ._. Somehow, I am so hyped up for A Div now. I feel like going to play MJC now. LIKE NOW. Omg, I am nuts.

First friendly on thursday. That should really show us, how far we stand as a team and as lines. Hopefully it would be a nice match.

Okay, I should get some work done today. Yes, I know it's 11 PM now. But there's STJ tomorrow, so I can hardly waste much time. Still haven't thought of what to get for my mortal and angel. >.< HAIZ.

Mistaken, always second guessing, underestimated, look I am still around. F**kin' Perfect- P!nk

That's all for today,
See ya~

I'm still breathing;
11:20 PM

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