Life is like a roller coaster. Just hold on tight when it's going down.

Monday, February 21, 2011

21/02/2011

Because I fear..

Hello peeps!

Long while since I blogged, kind of hard when you are JC2 student with a competition season coming up. I can feel my body breaking down from all the 'wear and tear'.

School is starting to swing at me with full force and I still haven't got used to it. I seem to be anticipating every weekend or break I could get, it's as if I can't wait to get out, somewhat true though... but still :/

I am supposed to be studying for Econs test now, but I just finished watching the All-Star Game today so I shall give myself some buffer time before I continue to do work, might even write to my angel while I am at it.

Floorball 'A' Div is starting soon and I am getting more and more nervous as the day for the cut for 16 and 8 comes.... Talking about this, I have to sms training timings and days. HAIZ.

Perhaps I really losing confidence in myself, but nonetheless, I've been stagnating since god knows how long?! Karma? Maybe, but I really want to play and play well during 'A' Div. My goal has remained the same throughout: Top 4 for 'A' Div. Nothing less. It's what drives me to play with an injured wrist or a sprained ankle. I should make a note for the retards from floorball before the results are released for the 16 and 8 playing. :/

On a different and random topic, I am beginning to feel like a masked man all of a sudden. Perhaps not that I would like it, but it's the only way to keep things in 'harmony' I suppose. I try as much to be myself, but sometimes, things and fate and life and all the other random stuff just disallows it. It calls for me to be someone I don't want to be. And for the matters of love, I can't even be bothered to think about it anymore. Too tired and too much to consider regarding such stuff. Perhaps I am thinking too much. As always.

Hoping TF's CCA stuff faster ends so that we can study together quickly. I am getting scared for exams now too. ):

I thought I had a lot to say, but it didn't seem that way in the end huh? Perhaps I answered some of the stuff I wanted to speak out inside of me. Perhaps I forgotten about it while those that are not forgotten nor answered goes to my blog. YAY!

My blog is not dead, is just sleepy (: *hints at someone*

Because holding on is so much easier than letting go, because it's much easier to feed yourself false hopes that it is to go through the pain. But I believe, going through the motion, is much more satisfying. It's not about the result, it's about the process.

That's all for today,
See Ya~

I'm still breathing;
6:01 PM