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Sunday, January 23, 2011

23/01/2011

When your mind is unclear,

Hello peeps!

I am supposed to do homework throughout this entire weekend but thanks to cancellation in study dates and the seduction of my computer, I failed ):

Training on saturday was just D: My coach sort of scolded the team and some of the stuff that he said, I was guilty of it. But not all though. :/

After that, study date with Sec 2 Clique was cancelled, although I didnt feel like going as I didn't want to waste my time travelling there to study like 2 hours?! Not worth it, so I went for dinner with HCFB. Then, Matthew decided to pang me aft dinner so I had to go home to study, which of course, I failed miserably.

As for today, I wasted my morning trying to find out whether I could swim. Conclusion? I am declaring non-swimmer during friday's test. :/ SIANZ, Is like in the middle of can and cannot. Sucks man -_-

Came back home and just caught up with the NBA games today :S So I only started doing work JUST NOW?!

Only finished Differential Equations for this entire weekend. And I have more work coming up tomorrow, THANKS TO HBL AH -____-

It better be worth it.

Anyway, I did spent my time on looking those letters I have received throughout the whole of last year. It kinds of pain me to know that, people who used to be very close, could just be world's apart within a few days. Not only that, the matters of school and CCA stuff are like crashing upon me and I seem do be doing everything for the CCA. It uses as much time as I do for watching videos on youtube. :/ That leaves me less time to think, with less time to think and clear my mind, it starts to go astray, which brings me to the state I am in now: Confused and Lost.

I don't really know what I want as of the near future. I don't even know how everything is going to fit into place. I do know who I need in my life but I dont know what I am aiming to achieve. Let's just say, I feel like I am going to waste my 2 years in HC. Not because I am in HC Floorball, more because, the stuff that I have handled and experienced.

Well, perhaps in the near near future, I would be able to spend some time and just think. Literally, stone and clear my mind.

Because when your mind is in a state of confusion, it tends to affect the other parts of your body. And most importantly, the heart. As of now, I dont know what I am really feeling and thinking, but the least I know of myself now, is that, I am confused and lost.

That's all for today,
See Ya~

I'm still breathing;
10:59 PM