Sunday, January 23, 2011
23/01/2011
When your mind is unclear,
Hello peeps!
I am supposed to do homework throughout this entire weekend but thanks to cancellation in study dates and the seduction of my computer, I failed ):
Training on saturday was just D: My coach sort of scolded the team and some of the stuff that he said, I was guilty of it. But not all though. :/
After that, study date with Sec 2 Clique was cancelled, although I didnt feel like going as I didn't want to waste my time travelling there to study like 2 hours?! Not worth it, so I went for dinner with HCFB. Then, Matthew decided to pang me aft dinner so I had to go home to study, which of course, I failed miserably.
As for today, I wasted my morning trying to find out whether I could swim. Conclusion? I am declaring non-swimmer during friday's test. :/ SIANZ, Is like in the middle of can and cannot. Sucks man -_-
Came back home and just caught up with the NBA games today :S So I only started doing work JUST NOW?!
Only finished Differential Equations for this entire weekend. And I have more work coming up tomorrow, THANKS TO HBL AH -____-
It better be worth it.
Anyway, I did spent my time on looking those letters I have received throughout the whole of last year. It kinds of pain me to know that, people who used to be very close, could just be world's apart within a few days. Not only that, the matters of school and CCA stuff are like crashing upon me and I seem do be doing everything for the CCA. It uses as much time as I do for watching videos on youtube. :/ That leaves me less time to think, with less time to think and clear my mind, it starts to go astray, which brings me to the state I am in now: Confused and Lost.
I don't really know what I want as of the near future. I don't even know how everything is going to fit into place. I do know who I need in my life but I dont know what I am aiming to achieve. Let's just say, I feel like I am going to waste my 2 years in HC. Not because I am in HC Floorball, more because, the stuff that I have handled and experienced.
Well, perhaps in the near near future, I would be able to spend some time and just think. Literally, stone and clear my mind.
Because when your mind is in a state of confusion, it tends to affect the other parts of your body. And most importantly, the heart. As of now, I dont know what I am really feeling and thinking, but the least I know of myself now, is that, I am confused and lost.
That's all for today,
See Ya~
I'm still breathing;
10:59 PM
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
11/01/2011
Hi retard, I am posting for you.
Hi peeps!
I usually dont want to blog on weekdays cos I am supposed to be mugging for As, but since it's open house tomorrow, and there's a retard that's flaming my tagboard, so, why not?
Anyway, I have decided to stay, because, the coach saw the problem in the team during the training, and actually talked about it. Well, since a coach can see the problem, an experienced one like Kenneth, should be able to solve it. So, let's just say, I am going all out.
Anyway, for the 'lol' guy. I blog to reflect on my own life, keep those memories that are important to me, because, this is much more lasting that writing one. Also, it is to let my friends from other schools that are close to me, update themselves about my own life. I don't really care if other people read the blog. However, I appreciate constructive comments that helped.
BUT, I didn't really find your comments constructive, especially when you were a total cock-eye which I have already replied to you. So, please, go look in the mirror and speak to it. You will find a lot more entertaintment than being a keyboard warrior. In case you didnt know, I dont do things for achievement like you. I do things that I enjoy doing. And, well, I enjoy basketball. I never claimed that I could make the team. I wouldnt dare to anyway. So before you come to my blog to talk thrash, why don't you go somewhere to show your 'intelligence' and please, read carefully next time before you speak again. Thanks.
If you don't know what I have went through and feel like running your mouth, please feel free to take a number and join the queue of people who are waiting for me to give them my fullest attention.
That's all for today,
See Ya~
I'm still breathing;
8:49 PM
Thursday, January 6, 2011
06/01/2010
At the crossroads once again.
Hi peeps!
I have placed myself at the crossroads once again. And this time, it seems, the decision I make would most probably determine, the ending I would have for J2. Perhaps, I am exaggerating the consequences, but please hear me out.
I made a bad decision a year ago, to choose to come to HC, ignoring my friends and choosing them over something less worth it.
I made another after awhile, choosing a subject combination of the toughest.
I made another decision after to choose floorball over MAD and perhaps, basketball. I am beginning to think, it was a bad decision too. Maybe not so much for MAD, I am just not a right fit there.
Looking at the team now at hand. The team that we will be selecting at least 9 from, I realised, I may have made the wrong decision. We have people un-motivated to even give more effort. We have people putting themselves before the team. Simply, we will be sending 16 individuals to A Div as a group to compete. Not a team.
I chose Floorball over MAD. I was backstabbed for it, being put words in my mouth that I didn't or never meant to say. I did admin work too. I even did stuff out of my job scope, at least, what I feel is out of my job scope. For all that, I will be getting a less than fufilling run. Who knows, maybe next week, there would be a change, but from what I see now, this is how I feel. And this feeling, is telling me to quit. Not because the training has gotten tougher, that's not the way I roll. But, because, I have lost the passion that has once brought me here. Not for the sport, for the team.
Perhaps partly because of our wonderful teacher-in-charge, who has hardly done anything for us. If you take up a CCA, you better be able to be responsible to it. Don't give us lame excuses, like seriously, 3 CCAs? SO? You chose to take this up, you only have yourself to blame.
Perhaps because, basketball is more of, my thing. The stuff I do. I am just more of a basketball player, than a floorball player.
Ryan is telling me to leave for my own good, to leave this team to find a place where I can truly enjoy.
Wei Xian is asking me to stay, because, I came so far, to give up now.
To say the truth, I dont even know who to listen to, sort of like a pendulum now, swinging from one end to the other.
I need to make my decision and fast. Because when school re-opens, if I do choose to commit to floorballl, I would be training from 7pm to 9pm. It's gonna be tough, so I have to decide fast.
Someone? Anyone?
After walking through so many pathways, deciding between different paths, I end up at the crossroad, once again.
That's all for today,
See Ya
I'm still breathing;
11:33 PM
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
05/01/2010
Damn it.
Hi peeps!
If I get a hundred dollars everytime my parents piss me off, I did be rich. Like really rich.
My parents are VERY UNsupportive of my CCA. YAY! ._.
I just came home from buying a new floorball stick because my old one was lost, and the first thing greeted me was my mom's glare. I am already like having a sore throat and damn tired, and she started to try and lecture me while I was outside. Being annoyed, I just demanded her to open the door.
I went in and instead of stopping, she went on. She started saying ridiculous stuff like, why only I need to change my stick while others dont need. And I just couldnt stand it and just, well, argued back, rather loudly I supposed. Something like asking her dont act smart when she doesn't even know anything.
She did went on but I can't be bothered and I just sort of, went into the toilet and closed the door shut.
How come only my parents from HC Floorball is so unsupportive?! I dont see other people having this kind of problems?!
Sucks to have parents unsupportive of SPENDING A SINGLE CENT on your CCA. To think I lived through 11 years of that.
Can't imagine living like this in a crucial 'A' Level Year. HAIZ. Can't imagine what they did say if they found out my CCA is going start at 7pm when school re-opens. Probably ask me to quit and join some club which doesn't require a single cent.
When things wasn't going right, I went left. Only to find out, that both routes were dead ends, with different endings. One against the way you live and the other against the life you live.
That's all for today,
See Ya
I'm still breathing;
6:06 PM
Monday, January 3, 2011
03/01/2011
Meet The Fockers and the DJ
Hi peeps!
Hope you are enjoying whatever is left of the holidays or the holidays that has ended for you! (:
Well, I did. :D
Went out to bball after so looooooooooooooooooong. And I have to say, my stamina is really deteoriating :/
After that, we went to meet Ryan at J8 to buy tickets for "Meet The Fockers". Had a quick lunch, bought some tidbits and drinks from NTUC and smuggled into the cinema. Heh.
The movie was not really AMAZING or NICE or something, but it was entertaining, not really worth the ticket's every cent, but I would say an average movie? Funny though. Haha. Just a movie about love, relationship and a lot of bad luck. HAHA.
Gathered outside of J8 for some talk cock session, which turned into a truth or dare session that then turned into a ONLY dare session. In the end, the only dares we did were prank calls. HAHA. Started calling people to act as Pizza Hut Delivery or DJs from 91.3 FM. HAHA. It's kind of funny hearing people really trying to sing Baby and Swear It Again out of the phone. Hilarious to the max. >.<
SIANZ.
School is like starting soon and I am supposed to do work. Ironically, Sorry Sorry is ringing in my ear now -____-
Haiz, perhaps I should just do work until someone calls me to dota~
It's nice to know, there are people you can act totally retarded with and around. Even better to know, they can sit down and lend a listening ear to you whenever you need it. (:
That's all for today,
See Ya~
I'm still breathing;
9:26 PM
