Thursday, July 29, 2010
29/07/2010
Gym With The Team <3
YO PEOPLE!
Sorry that I've not been blogging for so long, had to do some work luh.
Anyway, school was pretty much the same.
Bio Spa was just screwed seeing that I could only remember bits and pieces of the things to remember, hence, I sort of pieced them together wrongly. Talk about idiotic-ness and short term memory, I have the entire package ><
Chem tutorial today was just epically crazy. To think my group managed to stumble on the correct answers somehow and eventually won the entire thing ==
Maths tutorial was just rubbish as I didn't finish all the tutorials. Looks like I've got loads to catch up this weekend :O
After school, met Jane for basketball with her friends. And sad to say, I didn't had the touch. Perhaps because my shoe's sole spoiled abit D: Sian TTM. I just bought it not long ago only D:
After that, met HC Floorball for gym training.
Kwang Ming, thanks for the guidance in gym to this lost dude, who didnt know what to do (Y)
Anyway, first time I actually gym-ed. Sort of. All I can say is, I am very shagged. But somehow, this gym trainings seem more interesting to me. Perhaps because it's the first time our plans actually translate smoothly from paper to reality. Keep it that way please! (:
After that was team talk. Somehow I was doing most of the talking as no one seem to dare to voice out anything. Anyway, at least I sorted some stuff out. Then, the topic started to change to computer games and somehow, everyone started participating in the conversation. Haha, we are a bunch of crazy dudes (Y)
I am so shagged now, but I've to prepare tomorrow's stuff. So yeah....
That's all for today,
See ya~
I'm still breathing;
9:43 PM
Monday, July 26, 2010
26/07/2010
Never easy to think straight
when you're troubled
Hi people!
I am suffering from back injury. I hope. My dad say it COULD BE kidney problem. (We are hoping it's not luh. ) Never had I experienced so much pain to sit down. ._. At least it got better than during JTS, when I even had problems walking. But, I am pretty sure I am recovering. I THINK.
Don't ask me how I got it either, because, I REALLY DONT KNOW. I am not sure to say the least.
I realised I seem to start saying rubbish when I am down. I actually hurt someone close to me. Glad that it turned out okay! (: Luckily, I WOKE UP. HAHA.
Anyway, miss pig, I AM NOT SUICIDAL LUH! Thats so kua zhang. == Make me sound like want to commit suicide! D:
Back to life....
Yesterday was JTS. A lucky mistake that I arrived early, so went around with 3 seniors. We went basically everywhere at Bugis. Somehow, there was no awkwardness, perhaps cos of that one of a kind joker, Cheng Siang. Haha.
Anyway, word of advice, don't hold STJ/JTS at Manhatten Fish Market. I sort of got tired of it just by eating one meal ._.
I look retarded with short fringe after looking at those STJ/JTS photoes. Darn it. >.< COME ON, FRINGE, GROWWWWW. >.<
Thanks to TF AND Miss pig for sms-ing me. I know you might feel like you did nothing. But to me, it means a great deal. In different ways (: Thank youuuuu (:
I've decided to start catching up my work once the countdown to promos hit 60 days. I am going to become more mug. I realised I shouldnt say mugger, because, I am so easily distracted. Anyone interested to go out and mug on sundays? I DONT MIND :D As long as it is not too far I dont mind!
I found this new song from my friend's status. I thought the song was nice, so... here you go:
<< Still Breathing - Mayday Parade>>
Give me any reason to believe
'Cause I swear I'm done here
'Cause I've seen a bigger picture
And I'm looking for some answers
Tell me that it's worth it
'Cause I'm doing all I can to fight it
And I've never been this scared
And my moment's finally here
Time's racing (Please slow down)
I got to find my way out
I'm hopeless (But hoping)
My lungs won't fail me now
'Cause I'm still breathing
It's hard to be a man
But I'm doing all I can
I'm ready to give this all I have
I'm ready to be amazed
'Cause I'm standing here alone
Trying to make this life my own
And nothing will keep this heart from beating
I'm still breathing
Promise me some dignity
If I were to stand and die here
'Cause my heart is somewhere else
It's a pain I've never felt
Time's racing (Please slow down)
I got to find my way out
I'm hopeless (But hoping)
My lungs won't fail me now
'Cause I'm still breathing
It's hard to be a man
But I'm doing all I can
I'm ready to give this all I have
I'm ready to be amazed
'Cause I'm standing here alone
Trying to make this life my own
And nothing will keep this heart from beating
I'm still breathing
Where do we all find love?
Where do we all find love?
It's hard to be a man
But I'm doing all I can
I'm ready to give this all I have
I'm ready to be amazed (I'm still breathing)
'Cause I'm standing here alone
Trying to make this life my own (I'm still breathing)
And nothing will keep this heart from beating
I'm still breathing
I'm still breathing;
9:27 PM
Friday, July 23, 2010
23/07/2010
Giving Up
Hello people!
Life is not really exactly good for me, but, to those that actually care, thanks, I will move on. (:
Inter CT games today.
What can I say? We lost the one we were supposed to own. We win the one that we were unsure of winning.
HAIZ
At least I managed to amaze the opponent's class and entertain some of our classmates during this short stretch of 3 periods of PE.
*I am going to start ranting here*
Perhaps you wouldnt know I meant that it's you, but it doesn't matter, I don't need you to know. I don't like the way you just threw off all 'responsibility' off with just a single sentence and betrayed me. I don't like the way it went. Perhaps, what I've thought in my mind, has really came true. I rather it did not, but that's the way things are.
As for the other, sorry, I give up. Perhaps you never expect this to be you, perhaps you won't even see this too. I expected you to be there.... But, just to let you know, I have chose to give up already. I cared too much for no reason. Perhaps it's not your fault, but that my expectations were just too high, either way, you no longer need me. If it hurts you, I am telling you, it's not easy for me either.
*stops ranting*
PHEW.
Moving on.....
After school, Hazel suddenly came to me, " eh, want go Udders?" Well, seeing I had nothing to do, I agreed.
P.S. Wei Quan, sorry if I did hurt your feelings, I was just kidding about not wanting you to come. (:
Uhh, yea, so I went with Tai Zi, Hazel and Zeshan to Udders. Funny how I am around the opposite gender most of the time == Oh well, I don't really care anymore though. :O
Anyway, tried Rum Rum Raisin to have a taste of alcohol. It's pretty bitter, but it isn't that bad either. Maybe it just suits me now bah. *shrugs shoulders*
Life has come down hard on me. I am going to become stronger. Let's hope Justin's prediction would be wrong: Stone Heart.
If it comes down to that, it means, too much has happened. For now, the little things keeps me going~
<< 放弃你 - 瑶瑶>>
我想我并不聰明
我沒有你的機靈
在愛情變質之前我沒反應
沒察覺你的表情
你知道我不聰明
所以才選擇放棄
放棄去猜你每一個反應
去猜你是否變心
放棄你 放棄愛情
放棄了所有權利
連自己都知道這不公平
放棄你 放棄自己
放棄了愛的權利
放棄你 等於放棄我自己
你知道我不聰明
所以我選擇放棄
放棄去猜該如何留住你
放棄了所有回憶
放棄你 放棄愛情
放棄了所有權利
連自己都知道這不公平
放棄你 放棄自己
放棄了愛的權利
放棄你 等於放棄我自己
放棄你 放棄愛情
放棄了所有權利
連自己都知道這不公平
放棄你 放棄自己
放棄了愛的權利
放棄你 等於放棄我自己
I'm still breathing;
9:36 PM
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
21/07/2010
FML ONCE AGAIN ==
Hello people.
One FML-day DESERVES ANOTHER ==
I remembered charging my phone yesterday night. I remembered seeing the phone saying CHARGING.
I woke up and check my phone, Battery: 37%. FML
First time I have missed my stop at HCJC. I freaking overslept on the bus, and to think no one came to wake me up. I woke up at 7.31 at somewhere near St Magaret Secondary School. FML
So, I had to take the bus all the way back to HC. Morning Assembly was already over. Well, at least I evaded a demerit point again. :/
After that, before Bio tutorial, I realised I had more slides than I thought I had for presentation of Biology AA. So I had to prepare those slides that I missed out on the spot. FML.
After school, I went to meet my GP teacher as I told him I was meeting him today. I went with Sijia to the staff room, to find that he was not there. So I called him, and guess what? He told me because I didn't tell him when to meet, so he went off to see the doctor and was not coming back to school. FINE.
So he told me that he was free the whole day tomorrow. So I informed him I had CCA from 4-7. So he replied me, "You want me wait until 7?!" Obviously no. So I asked him, what about tomorrow 2-3. Of all things to say, he told me, I am not free at that time. FML.
So I am suppose to meet him at friday during the 2nd break as Sijia suggested.
Life just keeps getting 'better' and 'better'
Thanks to my 'sister' for accompanying me home.
That's all for today,
FML seriously ==
See you
I'm still breathing;
6:48 PM
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
20/07/2010
FML. SOL. U NAME IT.
I knew it, I told you guys that I would be here to rant soon. Here I am.
Anyway, first, I want to thank my classmates for all the concern for my dad, he is fine. Really, I appreciate it.
I am suppose to be doing homework or Bio AA presentation now, but here I am blogging once again. Once upon a time, I would have just heck blogging and do Bio AA. But, today is just too screwed, I needed an outlet, not with me wearing a happy mask everywhere I go.
I don't feel like talking to anyone, don't ask me why. Perhaps I am feeling abit out of place again, but oh well, nothing I can do about it.
Bio U. GP S. And they are moderating GP DOWN. FML.
Say that I am not taking my studies seriously. Say that I didn't mug for blocks at all. Even Hazel told me this.
YEAH, RIGHT, Studying until 3 am in the morning and waking up at 5 am the next. Then, skipping my usual sleep on the bus to study. You're telling me I didn't study for blocks? No, I am not denying the fact that I didn't put enough effort, for I felt that I didn't anyway, not with this kind of screwed results. But, I did try. I MEAN IT.
Perhaps I should start becoming a mugger soon. Don't get me wrong, I will still balance my social life. Just, when I have free time, I would be using it to catch up work. I will still be blogging, seeing how screwed my life has become in this short stretch of time. Rest assured, there might still be some entertaintment that can be found here.
I seem to be losing everything.
I don't like to hide my intentions when I am blogging, so I am going to be direct.
TF, Buddy, Miss Pig, Paxton, Sec 2 Clique and Sec 4 Clique. All the links that I care most about in my entire life. I am losing them.
Everyone seems to have someone else already. Here I am all alone.
GAHHH, SOL. Seriously.
"You have to face the clouds, to see the silver lining"
Kutless- That's what faith can do
I can't even find the clouds anymore, I only see thunderstorms.
I am really sorry for myself. Disappointed nonetheless.
Thanks to HC Floorball and Jane for keeping things off my mind for awhile. Although it didn't help, but it's nice to be able to not think about stuff for a while.
Whatever. Seriously, life, WHATEVER
I'm still breathing;
10:21 PM
Sunday, July 18, 2010
18/07/2010
What Can Faith Do?
Hello people! (:
I was just randomly facebooking when I saw this interesting status that was quite... inspiring?
"Don't you give up now the sun will soon be shining, you gotta face the clouds to see the silver lining"
The song is pretty NORMAL. But the lyrics are kind of intriguing. It can't apply to my situation now, but, it might for you. So here it is.
<< What Can Faith Do - Kutless>>
Everybody falls sometimes
Gotta find the strength to rise
From the ashes
And make a new beginning
Anyone can feel the ache
You think it's more than you can take
But you're stronger
Stronger than you know
Don't you give up now
The sun will soon be shining
You gotta face the clouds
To find the silver lining
I've seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn't ever end
Even when the sky is falling
I've seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That's what faith can do
It doesn't matter what you've heard
Impossible is not a word
It's just a reason
For someone not to try
Everybody's scared to death
When they decide to take that step
Out on the water
It'll be alright
Life is so much more
Than what your eyes are seeing
You will find your way
If you keep believing
I've seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn't ever end
Even when the sky is falling
I've seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That's what faith can do
Overcome the odds
You don't have a chance
(That's what faith can do)
When the world says you can't
It'll tell you that you can
I've seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn't ever end
Even when the sky is falling
And I've seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That's what faith can do
That's what faith can do
Even if you fall sometimes
You will have the strength to rise
Alright, that's all for today,
Keep faith (:
See Ya~
I'm still breathing;
3:48 PM
Friday, July 16, 2010
16/07/2010
Annoying Day
Hello people!
I have no idea why, but today, is pretty much an annoying day to me. Even small things like people being too close to me on the bus annoyed me.
My dad annoyed me in the morning to ask me get some stuff for the office of HC. The humid weather didn't help much too. I couldnt sleep on the bus cos I didn't get a good seat. My classmate was like using my part of the table giving me little space. Then, Paxton pang seh me after school. GP essay fail. I call this one annoying thing deserves another. = =
I count myself lucky to have not vented my anger on anyone today, I cant imagine what would happen if I did.
Thanks a lot to Thuan and Marcus for asking to play soccer after school, if not I would become some lost puppy, which is totally annoyed and vexed.
I've decided to pon YOG practice again. For training. Not that I don't want to go, but.. I just dont feel like it. Perhaps I am getting abit lazy :/ Haiz, let's hope a run to Botanic Gardens from HC would help. HAHA.
I don't intend to vent anymore of my annoyed mood here so, I am going to stop here. Sorry for the short post though ._.
Alright, that's all for today,
SO ANNOYINGGGGG
See Ya!~
I'm still breathing;
9:40 PM
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
14/07/2010
Losing faith...
Hello people!
My dad cleared his first scan, and apparently, there's one more to go, so I am going to keep my fingers crossed for his next one. :/
I am supposed to be doing PW/EOM/Biology AA now, but here I am blogging once again.
TF, everything would be fine okay? Don't lose faith like me.
I miss my Sec4 Clique all of a sudden. Don't ask me why, it's just that sudden. I want to hang out with them again. Hanging out with them just somehow makes me feel better. Comfortable. And more like myself.
I am regretting my choice to HC now. Very badly. Perhaps if I have hung my head low and went to AJ with them, my life would be better. I would not have quit basketball, I would have a better chance of playing. I would be with them. :/
I am not doubting the friends I made in HC. They are amazing, seriously. But somehow, they are different. Perhaps, JC just makes people's life sadder. And perhaps, I would not be as confused as I am now...
依依不舍 舍不得 地球上最浪漫的一首歌
我怕太超现实的快乐 只是你借给我的
紧紧抱着 拥抱着 地球上最浪漫的一首歌
我的灵魂二十一公克 因为你而完整了 完美了
<<黄鸿升- 地球上最浪漫的一首歌>>
Perhaps I am just too paranoid. Or perhaps I am right that you don't. All in all, I am losing faith.
That's all for today,
I can't see the end anymore,
See Ya
I'm still breathing;
8:56 PM
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
13/07/2010
Something happened....
Hello people!
Day 1 of Sabbaticals are out. I've got Fusion Hip Hop with Wei Quan! :D Finally, I am going to learn popping and locking officially and I no longer going to be dancing rubbish. BLEAH. From then on I no need keep being scared of using le :D
My dear daughter Ying Lin, the person who stole your phone would get his/her retribution. You can count on it (:
Anyway, training today was just totally obviously, AIMLESS ONCE AGAIN. We basically just did nothing. Zzzz... Sick and tired of hearing empty promises to help us find a coach. I swear, if by the end of your promised date, we have no coach, I am going to find one myself. This kind of aimless-ness just sucks to the core = =
My heart is beating darn fast now. Usually when this happens, is either I am exercising or something bad has happened to someone close to me. I really hope that is just TF skipping meals. Please let not anything VERY bad happen to anyone. PLEASE.
Talking about this, my dad is going for checkup in hospital tomorrow. I am crossing my fingers that it's just some normal checkup and everything would be fine. But for my mom to be accompanying seems pretty much abnormal already.... GAHHH... Home alone until 9PM tomorrow. I hope I will be waiting at home with good news.. PLEASE
I still have work to rush, so I am stopping here.
Just for encouragement for everyone:
Limits are just like fear. They are nothing but illusions.
- Micheal Jordan
Anyway, anyone dont mind me joining them in Day 2 Sabbaticals? :O
Alright, that's all for today,
Stay happy,
See Ya~
I'm still breathing;
9:52 PM
Monday, July 12, 2010
12/07/2010
Whatever..
Hello people!
To those who watched World Cup finals, I feel sorry for you as you guys probably are dying for sleep now or have already rested from it. But yeah, 7.30AM - 4.00 PM must one hell of a time for you. According to some pig, it sounded sarcastic.... So, no, I am not being sarcastic, I am being truly concerned ._. although I didn't watch.
First day back from weekends and we get 'entertained' by a dialogue from our dearest Principal. A dialogue about True Love. I almost laughed when I heard about it. Well, no disrespect to him, but, is 'True Love' that easy to define? I mean seriously, people are already complicated being and you want to define their feelings? That's one heck of a job... And he somehow introduced so much factors to look into when getting a relationship and I was like WOAH?! What's the whole point of it?
Life did not come with an instruction manual
That's why we are here to learn things by EXPERIENCING IT? That feels pretty right to me. Everyone makes mistakes at some point of time, but I think as long as we learn from it, it doesn't really matter I suppose.
To sum up:
我不怕爱错 只怕没爱过
[孙悟空 - MAYDAY 五月天]
Anyway, lessons has begun officially. And Block Test just came right up to me and slapped me across the face. Yeah, not really pissed with anyone, just kind of pissed and disappointed at myself. Since I can't vent off my anger for it's not anyone's fault, I can only hope to laugh it off bah. Maths was pretty much a major disappointment. Chemistry was an expected epic fail, but that doesn't reduce much of whatever I was feeling. Sucks to the max. Econs results in 2 weeks. Biology should be coming up soon. My GP teacher shook my hand.
Seriously, screw it.
Whatever...
I should start my mugging mode soon.
Anyway, sabbaticals 2010. I am out of choices for Day 2. Any suggestions or people that don't mind an idiot joining them? I chose Fusion Hip Hop, New School Hip Hop, Street Jazz and Korean Hip Hop for Day 1 in order of choices.
Haiz, I still have Chemistry Practical to do. Oh, Yuh Chyi just told me there's still Bio Tutorial MCQ.
I am predicting myself to come here and FML soon. Like very soon. I can feel it.
Alright, that's all for today,
Keep faith
See Ya~
I'm still breathing;
9:03 PM
Thursday, July 8, 2010
08/07/2010
Will we always say we've tried?
Hello people! (:
It has been an awesome week back to school, excluding the disastrous Chemistry MCQ results, everything was pretty much SLACK.
In case you are curious, I failed my MCQ, dont probe further, I don't intend to rant on such a wonderful week back in school. HAHA
It was half-day today in celebration of the Basketball division double championships. Kudos and many thanks to the team that I was part of for one training. Funny how many things come back to haunt me all the time. HAHA.
Anyway, yeah, school ended early for us and we got the other half of the day off. Supposedly, I wanted to play basketball with Paxton, but apparently someone decided to PANG SEH ME, so I went off with OG for movies.
And, stupid MARIE LIM, you better be there for our next OG outing, you have missed a lot le!
Despicable Me.
If you don't like cliche movies and don't like cartoons, dont go for it. Other than that, I would say it's a pretty nice movie (:
P.S.
Sorry to Cathay for causing y'all needing to clean up the popcorn mess we caused. I dropped it accidentally! SORRY ><
Anyway, it's suprising to see some pig there. Some place to see you. HAHAHA. It would be kind of epic if y'all had watched the same movie with us, but NEVERMIND. HAHAHA.
TF, I haven't forgotten you. I hope you haven't forgotten me too. I know how you feel being in a dilemma, though I can never understand how hard it is for you to be so far apart from your loved ones. All I can say is, everything is manageable, I can only wish the best for you. I believe you can balance it. You have my support okayy? (:
Oh by the way, Buddy, paiseh about the present thing. >.< And stop suan-ing me, although I am guilty of that too :P HAHAHA
Don't stop trying everyone.
"When our time is up, when our lives are done
Will we say, we've had our fun
Will we make a mark this time
Will we always say we tried"
Rooftops - Lost Prophets
Alright, Issues and Ideas left,
Once I am done, I AM GOING TO SLEEP,
SEE YA :D
I'm still breathing;
9:34 PM
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
06/07/2010
I don't want to lose.... y**
Hello people!
School has re-opened, it wasn't good but it wasn't that bad either. Well, basically, a pretty standard school re-opening.
Yeah, I want to state here I don't like being maligned, don't accuse of something I didn't do. So what you are older? Doesn't give you the right to malign me. Absolutely disgusted. Sorry about it.
Anyway, now we have 1.5 hours break on tuesday and 0.5 less hour of bio. Thank goodness, if not I can't imagine the dryness of Tuesdays. So yeah, for the first time on tuesdays, we were waiting for time to pass.
Bio passed pretty quickly for some weird reason and I finally paid attention in Biology lecture, OMG, CONGRATULATE ME. Hahaha, must thank Leonard's seriousness to say the truth, but oh well.
*Side-track abit*
I hope I managed to cheer you up with that pathetic letter I wrote. Please be happy. I will cross my fingers for you >.<
After school, Wen Cong said he wanted to practice for Inter- CT Basketball games... so yeah, I joined him. Well, I haven't lost the touch, so it better stay there for the games. I don't feel like losing anything. ><
Anyway, Floorball training sucks now. It's so freaking aimless without a coach. It's like MAD without dance instructor, it's like Clubs and Societies without plans and it's like Aesthetic without conductor. AIMLESS. We even ended early. That says a lot already.
I hope things would go back to normal. For everyone.
I don't want to lose..... YOU
Alright, that's all for today,
Keep faith,
See Ya~
I'm still breathing;
10:53 PM
Monday, July 5, 2010
05/07/2010
Life's full of sh*t
Life is full of shit.
There isn't anyone here that can deny that. Not even myself. We get to enjoy life for a while and then something happens. Anything. And you know what life does, it doesn't just give you one simple problem. It gives you either a whole load of them or one big one. There's no saying that there's always a way out of it, neither is there always a solution to our problems. Sometimes, there's nothing you could do.
However, there are always people that care. People that is willing to be by your side and go through your problems with. I am not saying they can help you, but they can share the pain with you and stand alongside with you to go through all those. If you think not letting them go through that pain seems better, you're wrong. Sometimes, there are these weird people that care who rather share the pain with you and stay by your side. Nobody leads an easy life and I mean it.
Whatever that one could be going through, it feels like the end of the world. It feels like the sky crashed down. But if that's the case, stay strong and lift it back up, you're not alone. I promise you this, you're not alone. Not without me.
Stay strong girl.
I'm still breathing;
9:47 PM
Saturday, July 3, 2010
03/07/2010
WHO SAYS SO!
Hello people! (:
Sorry I have not been blogging for awhile, stupid blocks fault!
Anyway, I screwed my block tests, so yeah, I foresee in the near future, I would be coming here to rant soon. So yeah...
Let's not talk about that irritating topic and move on. HAHAHA
Overslept for basketball with Sec 4 clique today. Well, can't blame, I only slept 2 hours the night before yesterday mugging for biology! D: Oh well, at least I WENT. >.<
I was kind of pissed off at the start when I rushed there to find that they were another place playing basketball. When I reached there, I was super annoyed. But oh well, things became better after awhile. Although I have lost that touch, but it was fun luh. HAHA.
Then, they decided to go watch Toy Story 3 after playing, so we went different houses to bathe before heading to Shaw at Orchard.
I am not going to spoil it for you if you have not watch, but IT'S REALLY QUITE NICE! Hahaha. It's not really exactly kiddish I suppose, and it was quite entertaining and funny too. Oh, there are also sad scenes, WHERE JOSEPH CRIED. HAHAHAHA. Omg, super funny when he told me he cried. I won't spoil it so GO AND WATCH. IT'S ACTUALLY NOT BAD. HAHAHA.
I enjoyed myself today, so I shall leave my emo post to another day. And no worries, I'm fine for now (:
Alright, that's all for today,
I AM GOING TO CHILLAX YO,
So enjoy yourselves after blocks kayy!
See ya~
I'm still breathing;
8:34 PM
