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Tuesday, June 15, 2010

15/06/2010

I lost control just now. I am in a

dilemma NOW.

Hello people!

I am kind of SIAN-ed now. Why issit that things come back to haunt me every single time?

Floorball training just now. I still can't get used to being coach-less. It's like training without a proper guide and a proper aim. Everything just seems so much more disorganised.

It's just weird having to take control of our own training, starting the drills on our own and not knowing what we might have done wrong. Although it's true that practice makes perfect. But, doesn't it make much more sense having someone to guide you? It does to me. HAIZ~

Match with (Note: not against) the girls team just now. Well, I have to say, I did give whatever I could to win. But, some people just never learn :/ I mean, I understand everyone makes mistakes and everyone needs time to train. But seriously, when you had a longer time to train and yet, you still produce such lousy plays, it just goes to show that WE ARE RIGHT that you are training the WRONG THINGS. -.-

I am sorry that I lost control of my emotions in the middle of the game, but you are making way too much mistakes without even redeeming yourself. Yes, I was wrong to smack the floor to show my displeasure. I am sorry that I did, in some way, insulted you. But, think about it for a second, people do things for a reason. Right?

Anyway, I am now stuck in a dilemma once again.

It's the same one that got me during 'A' division. They are asking me to back to keeping. :/ Yes, I understand that I might be a little better than Keith. And I dont really hate keeping that much. And I also understand that, I MIGHT be able to give more to the team as a keeper.

BUT.

I remember why I didn't want to keep in the first place. It's restricting. It's boring at times. And, I can't take pressure well.

I am enjoying myself as a field player.

I understand the team needs a strong keeper. I understand that, I fit in as one. But, I don't like it. I am sorry.

But I ain't going to rule it out yet. Don't worry. I would talk to some other floorball people before making decisions. Where are those people when you need them? = =

Anyway, thanks TF. I just want you to know, that I appreciate you. That's why. I just want you to know, that you mean something. To me at least. (:

I am going to keep going.

Alright, that's all for today,
Stay strong,
See ya~

I'm still breathing;
11:14 PM