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Monday, April 26, 2010

26/04/2010

Distant Much

Hello people!

I am doing QUITE an emo post today, so yea, sorry about those who are seeking entertaintment!

It has been only less than half a year from the 19th and no one can ever imagine how close we can get in these few months. And the stuff we share amongst each other are just as crazy as ever. There seem to be no communication barrier between us. However, recently, we have distant. I have no idea why either!!!! It's like, I know it has been busy for you and we can't have those talks we use to have. I understand you're tired too. I wont even blame you if you cant read this post. But, I dont like the distance between us. Well, I must be being paranoid again. I know we will talk soon, but when? Oh well, I know our ties will never be broken easily, so I shall keep faith. (:

I have come to the realisation of a flaw I have in myself, which is actually one of my greatest strengths too. People feel comfortable around me and dont feel the need to hide themselves. Partly because I am true to everyone around me too. Well, because of that, people open up to me easily. Hence, I know stuff of them. Then again, it results in 2 outcomes. They are afraid to lose me as a friend. OR They will never accept what's more. It's hard to explain it on my blog, so I rather make it known to those few people that I keep faith in. At least, I will let them know soon. All I can say is, I put friends and love at my priorities. Maybe abit higher than family and A LOT higher than my results. At least for the moment.

I need to distant from some people now.... People who dont know their limits and people who backstabs. KEEP AWAY FROM ME PLEASE. If you think I am someone who can bear any criticism you throw at me, YOU ARE SO DAMN WRONG! I take ANY jokes thrown at me, but I take criticisms to my heart seriously. So please learn to draw a line between jokes and criticisms, because I have been seeing more of criticisms from you than jokes.

A few people whom I want to be close with are distant from me now. Because of stories? Because of emotional setbacks? I don't know. I hate this, the coldness he has been giving me is unbearable. To think that we use to click so well! Every cold shoulder he gave me is much more unbearable than you think. Call me AA if you want. But I dont really care, I dont need attention from people. I need concern and care from people whom I care for. Not asking much since I do give my very full care and concern to people whom I care for.

Distant....

I hope I dare to <3 again. Setbacks are pushing back to that bottomless pit. Sorry. I sound super stupid and silly. Oh well, this is my blog, so I dont really care much. HAHAHA.

Oh well, I would find my way out like I always do. USUALLY. Haha.

I would be fine. That's what I always say and that's always what I achieve. THEORETICALLY.

But yes, I can smile, for I have reasons to. I can cry for I have reasons to. But for now, the reasons for smiling outweighs the reasons for crying. So I shall smile (: SMILE!!! :D

Okay, that's all I have for today,
Stay strong, less distant,
SEE YA~

I'm still breathing;
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