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Monday, April 12, 2010

12/04/2010

~ Too Much For Me ~

Hi people!

Monday Blue's today! D:

I had Econ's tests in the morning! But guess what? I didnt touch anything Econs related yesterday night! Woohooo. Well, I promised my daughter Ying Lin to not give up, so I studied on the bus. A bad idea as it turned out to be. Although I had a seat, the long hours spent on reading Econs notes gave me motion sickness. I am not talking about just giddyness or dizziness. I am talking about major ones and those kind where you feel like puking. I kept taking small rest in between series. However, because of that, I didn't get to finish it D: And I had the dizziness throughout the day D:

Hence, the test totally killed me. I could only be able to do 10 marks. And I cannot gurantee those 10 marks. So good luck to me? HAHA.

Then there was Chem Lab! Best Chemistry Lab ever :D We get to try out our own experiment. And it WORKED!!!! Haha, uploading photoes on Facebook soon. Well, our chemistry project group can only be described with one word, ZHAI! HAHA. Too bad its not the project work group D: If not would be better (: Well, at least the experiment of ours was a great success. We would demonstrating to the class next week. Sure no problem one (:

After that was Econs Tutorial. I was not in the mood of listening so we(Wei Quan, Jonathan Voon and Me) started playing lame games behind the class. Haha, pure entertaintment. Oh well, I would start mugging Econs next time when I have the time :)

After that went home with Yuh Chyi! :D She's really someone who you can talk rubbish to. HAHA. But that's not saying I cant talk rubbish to other people luh! I have a lot of other more important people I can talk rubbish to :) So those people dont jealous :) Especially someone that I am about to talk to soon :D

And to that specific someone, how dare you kept something from me!!! Hmph, I would nag you later since I didnt had the chance just now. HAHA. PREPARE TO DIE! :P Joking joking, I wont kill you, too important to kill :] By the way, take care of yourself, don't always forget to eat and all, hear already very sad one leh :( Haha.

And my buddy, hoped you rest well today, and hope you remember to chiong homework. HAHA. :P

Now, its for something angsty. I dont really know what the hell do you want, and I am seriously not obliged to apologise to you first. Tell me to not do something and do it yourself, thanks a lot. I dont care if you get everyone on your side as long as those that I care for believe me. Just because I act as though I am fine and like nothing happened does NOT mean I know nothing and am not affected. Don't worry if you dont know what I am talking about, it's probably not you, but if you think it's you, feel free to clarify with me. I rather settle the problem than let it go on, but I ain't going to initiate it. I am going to keep on smiling and trying, but rest assure, that's as far as I will go.

Sometimes I really can don't bother about stuff, but I choose to bother because I care. A part of Fort Minor's Believe Me's lyrics came to mind now: "I thought you were just like me, somebody who could see all the pain I see, but you prove to me unintentionally that you would self-destruct eventually. I thinking about the mistake that I make doesn't hurt, but it's not gonna work cos it's really much worse that I thought, I wish you were something you were not, now this guilt is really all that I've got. " It really applies now. But you proved me wrong. I am affected yes, but I am not showing it. But if you cross the line, then you are going to mess with a lot of stuff that you don't want to.

Perhaps I am just not as perfect as I hope I could be. No one can anyway, but I always try to change myself for people I care for. I have changed a lot, but my care for my friends never changed. It would remain that way. Those people who are close to me, you will always remain that way. Those people who were close to me, you will always remain in my heart. Those people who would become close to me, you will be just as important. Basically, everyone in life that had walked in and did not choose to walk out/ walked back in after you walked out, I bear no grudges you are forever my friends :)

I am still afraid to take the step because I am damn sure I will fail. So forget it, I would just let it remain that way, perhaps I would get used to it somehow, this kind of stuff I had experienced once before. It didn't kill me the first time, it wont kill me the second. :) I will continue smiling for the world IS a better place and that I have still so much reasons to smile for and live for.

There's training tomorrow, I look forward to it. I <3 HC Floorball :)

P.S. HAPPY BIRTHDAY -SHUAI GE- CHEN RONG :)

Alright, that's all for today,
See ya~
LOTS OF LOVE, :D

I'm still breathing;
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